Monday, November 30, 2009


M has an appointment with a GI specialist on the 10th. I wish I could write a happy blog post and be all funny, but I seriously can't right now. Thank you for reading anyway.

Friday, November 27, 2009

M update - kind of

We had a good Thanksgiving and still have not heard the results of the RAST test. M ate and didn't throw up so I was happy. We should hear results later today or Monday. I have a feeling in my gut that the RAST will come back normal, which means on to a pediatric GI specialist, CT scans of the intestines, tubes down throats, and more blood tests. It's not fair.

I have decided that I'm definitely ending the blog. I won't delete it until I can let everyone know what's wrong, but I feel I have no other choice. She needs me, plain and simple. I need to focus on my family and my daughter. I'll miss the blog, especially when LOST comes back on in February, but I don't know what else to do.

If you're a member of one of my mommy communities I will try to check in there occasionally, or you can e-mail me at

I'll miss everyone I've gotten to know through my blog. There are countless other wonderful blogs out there to read. I know a lot of people who have kids who are sick blog about it as an outlet and I think that's wonderful, but I just can't do that. I'm not made that way. If you really want updates on M, though, e-mail me at the address above and I'll tell you any information that I may have.

Thanks for reading and commenting on my blog, even though it's not that much to look at. You're all pretty awesome and I'll miss you.

ETA: Her doctor just called and she has no food allergies, so we go to the GI specialist next week.

Monday, November 23, 2009

M update

Most of her tests came back today and they were all normal. All that's left is the food allergy test and it's still pending. The nurse is supposed to call me as soon as they have the results. If the RAST is normal then it's on to a pediatric GI specialist.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Taking Stock

My life has been a complete whirlwind lately, hence the deplorable state of my once cheery blog. I have honestly never felt more lost in my life.

See this little person? She is one of the two loves of my life. The great love of my life is the Hubs. She's a close second. You see, I would do anything for them, anything they needed, without batting an eye at my own self preservation. When she came into our lives she made everything better. She made Hubs a better man. She made me a better woman.

She's a beautiful ball of sunshine. She doesn't walk, she bounces. She has an eternal grin, and infectious laugh. She has big blue eyes like her dad and dark blond hair like me. She likes pink. She likes to wear a tutu with cowboy boots. She's a good friend and a perfect daughter. She's a whole lot better than I could ever hope to be.

And she's sick. And we don't know why or with what. We don't know if it's serious or minor. We don't know. The not knowing is the worst. I've spent a lot of the last week evaluating what's important to me. I love blogging. I love my online communities. I love facebook. But I don't know if I can or should do them anymore. You see, she's scared, and more than anything she needs her mommy. Truth be told, Hubs and I are both scared, too. And when I'm not being brave for her, we need to be there for each other, not keeping up with our internet obligations. So I'm considering ending my blog. I know there are a very few of you who faithfully read it and to you I'm truly sorry. I haven't made an iron clad decision yet, so the blog will be left up for now. Tomorrow we're going to Children's Hospital to have some tests done (if you are a friend on Facebook, please don't mention this there. We're limiting what we broadcast to the world). I'll post when we know results from that test at the end of next week. Hopefully I'll have made my decision by then.

Thank you for reading. I really do appreciate all of you.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

New Moon Premiere

So my city had a New Moon premiere last night. It was a charity function. Tickets cost $100. I didn't go. Kristen and Taylor were there. Hubs and I drove by the theater. At one point Hubs said, "There's Jacob! I see him!" I said, "Where?!" and he said, "He turned into a wolf and ran away!"

The Hubs thinks he's funny.

We saw a police car with it's lights on. It was awesome.

That was my trip to the New Moon premiere. Did anyone else go to a premiere?

I don't even want to go to the movie. The first movie made me sad because it wasn't much like the book. Then I saw the previews and I am not a fan of Obi-Wan-Kenobi Edward. My friend is making me go with her, though. She promised me some movie theater nachos. That's right. I can be bought.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

M update 2

We took M to the pediatrician this morning and they referred us to Childrens Hospital. So on Saturday morning we'll head to the lab there for some tests. Right now they're looking at food allergies and gluten problems. If they find nothing from these test we'll be referred to a pediatric GI specialist for further testing. Hopefully they'll find something from the testing as food allergies would be much easier to treat than a physical intestinal problem.

She's feeling good today. It's rainy so we built a fort, made cupcakes, and made handprint turkeys. Hopefully she'll stay healthy until we can figure this out. And hopefully we'll figure it out before Christmas.

Thanks for the prayers! I may try to do a LOST update this week, since I am woefully behind and neglecting my poor, shabby blog.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

M Update

M's had a good few days with no stomach issues, so YAY! She has an appointment with a gastro doctor on Tuesday morning, so hopefully we'll know more then. We've been so bored. I've been keeping her in the house because I don't want her to catch anything before this appointment. I'll be able to let you know more on Tuesday. For now she's doing just fine, though!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Need some prayers

M is sick. I'm going to have to call her doctor again tomorrow. She threw up all day, spent four hours in the pediatrician's office under observation, and is feeling worse again. Her "throw up" episodes are getting more frequent, so there has to be an underlying reason. Best case scenario is a food allergy. Worse case is, well, a lot of horrible things. I'm calling her pedi first thing in the morning and asking them to run some tests on her GI track and other things. The tests will probably be miserable.

As a person with chronic health problems, I am constantly in fear that my daughter will have them, too. This is terrifying for me and miserable for her. Hubs is very concerned as well. I don't know how often I'll post in the next few days, but I'll try to keep everyone updated.

Thanks, Sara

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Things I love today


These napkin rings I made as door prizes for my mommy group. I want to keep them. Maybe I'll win them as a door prize. This project was cheap, and I'll probably make sets for friends for Christmas. It took 16 gauge bronze wire, 28 gauge bronze wire, and glass beads. Thanks to JoAnn's and their fabulous Veteran's Day coupons (because nothing says Veteran's Day like a well made craft), I finished this project, 4 rings, for 3.59.


This Snow White dress I made for M for Christmas. I like it now. I hated it when I was making it. It's the only thing she asked for for Christmas and I, being the dolt that I am, thought I would make it instead of just buying one. This dress was the biggest pain in the butt to make. I'm not even kidding. It has applique. It has darts. It has gathers. It has a zipper. It has a popped up detachable collar. It has piping. I wanted to scream by the time it was over with. But it's done now and it's cute! And it's closer to Snow White's dress than anything they have in the store so Woo Hoo! And I may or may not have not had cording on hand to do the piping. And I may or may not have cut the string off of one of M's pull toys to use as piping. I may or may not be a horrible mom.

My Cocomotion. I love it and I love the fact that it's making cocoa for me right now. Because I'm cold. And in need of chocolate.


My turkey. I bought my Thanksgiving turkey and I'm so excited! I'm not, however, excited that we still have a tiny freezer and my turkey takes up the whole thing. Dear Hubs: I want to move into a bigger house where I can have a deep freezer. Thanks.


Cinnabons. Love them. Love that I ate one at the mall today. Love that you can almost go into diabetic shock just by smelling one.'s Cinnabon season.

What are YOU liking?

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Whatever Happened to Thanksgiving?

I love autumn. It is my favorite time of year. The air is cool with just a bite of winter to it. I get to wear my sweaters again. I start making soups and hot cocoa. The leaves turn and fall from the trees. Kroger starts selling cinnamon brooms. Everything smells like pumpkin. Like I said, it's my favorite time of year.

So it makes me sad that after Halloween everything becomes about Christmas. It's only fitting, since my favorite season is autumn, that Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. I love the simplicity of it. I love how it's just focused on family and giving thanks for the harvest, friends and family, blessings in general. It's relaxing. It's a turkey slow-roasting in the oven while M and Hubs watch the Macy's parade in their pajamas on the living room floor. After dinner we put up the tree and trim it. M loves it.

I was sad today. I went to Wal-Mart to buy some dish detergent and the store was completely decked out in Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas, too. I just wish that Thanksgiving could get its due. We have seven weeks until Christmas. Do I already have to have candy canes and tinsel shoved in my face? Hobby Lobby had their Christmas aisles set up in July. JULY! I was still wearing flip flops and dying from heat exhaustion.

So I'm pleading with everyone to just STOP with the Christmas-ing already. We have a whole month after Thanksgiving to focus on Christmas. Just stop right now and be thankful for what you have; for who you have. It's time everyone took a step back from the commercialization and just focus on their families for awhile.